Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Roses Off A Cliff...

February 13, 2010

It was early morning, on my way to work. During that drive, plans were all laid out. More like the plans had a way of falling into place without much effort. Even the roses felt like just the right touch for what might turn out to be a magical evening. I don't normally do this for anyone unless I think she's really special.

Tonight would be great.

Later, in a loud, smokey billiard hall somewhere in Quezon City. I was taking my shots on the billiard table like a man on a mission. I didn't care for the yuppie crowd watching, nor the sorry state the tables were in. I was upset. She hasn't returned my calls, texts or messages for what seemed like the longest time and I wanted to understand why. Special thanks to Ryan and Henri for putting up with me that night.

Still not happy, as if something still has to be done to ease this ache. Still went up to the cliffs of Antipolo. Luckily I got parking and a table, despite the Valentines rush and had coffee. The view was amazing. Sigh.


February 14, 2010...

Still on the cliffs of Antipolo. Somewhere around past midnight. I just stood up, went by the rail, and threw the flowers off the cliff.

All that just for the effect.

Apparently it did, with the girls next table shouting out in surprise and asking why. I can't exactly remember what I said, only something about those flowers were only meant for someone else. Despite the poetic injustice of that act I still felt bad about it, even to the point of buying those girls single flowers from the door and a beer for their guy friends who were total strangers to me. I guess its ok, considering I'm also a stranger to them. Happy Valentines Day guys.

Then I went home after that, with more questions than answers.

One of those questions would be this: Could she be doing this very same thing somewhere?

Labels: ,

Sunday, February 14, 2010

And All I Wanted Was That You Be Totally Honest With Me...



I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kind of boring
Need something that I can confess

Till all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw me wink, no
I've been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that'll light those ears
Sick of all the insincere
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time
Don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

My God, amazing how we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Who drive the shiny big black cars

And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Send it straight to gold
I don't really like my flow, oh, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that'll light those ears
Sick of all the insincere
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time
Don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

Got no reason, got no shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'mma tell you everything

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that'll light those ears
Sick of all the insincere
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time
Don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

All my secrets away....

Labels:

Monday, February 08, 2010

Might Be Time To Snap Out Of The Fantasy Coz That's Just The Way It Is...

Deja vu in a bad way...

Doesn't matter who gets the best of who, or who can hurt who the most, no
It never was meant for it to be that way, never should be that way at all

The way it is, that's the way that it goes, happenin' day after day, yes
That's the way it is, that's the way that it goes
Workin' in the strangest ways

Even though we could never seem to work things out
I still love you just the same, I do
I miss your smile and that sparkle in your eyes
You're so beautiful, never change!


The way it is, that's the way that it goes, happenin' day after day, yes
That's the way it is, that's the way that it goes
Workin' in the strangest ways

What it is, and what it was, what shall be shall be, yeah
Sometimes it happens in the strangest ways
Sometimes it's hard to believe (do you believe?)
Do you believe, can you believe?

The way it is, that's the way that it goes
Workin' in the, workin' in the strangest ways


Now it really don't matter who, who gets the best of who
It never did and it never will, no
It never was meant for it to be that way, why must it be that way at all?

The way it is, that's the way that it goes, happenin' day after day, yeah yeah
That's the way it is, that's the way that it goes
Workin' in the, workin' in the strangest ways
That's the way it is, that's the way it is
That's the way it is, that's the way it goes, yeah

Yeah, that's the way it is, that's the way it goes
That's the way it is, that's the way it goes
I see it happen day after day, yeah, yeah
Now I'm workin' in the strangest ways
Yeah yeah yeah yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah


Can you believe, do you believe? Do you believe, can you believe?
That's the way it is, that's the way it is, yeah yeah yeah
That's the way it is, that's the way it goes, yes it do

I just hope I'm wrong and it's all just a paranoid dream.

Sunday, January 03, 2010

And The Irony Of 2009 Is...

January 3, 2009

Belated Happy New Year Bloggers! Hope all is well with everyone. Wishing everybody only the best. And then some. :)

2009 has been a very eventful year. It had a lot of ups and downs, some tragedies and whatnots...

Personally what really got to me with 2009 is what I fondly call my personal Irony. Not wanting to be emo about it, it just so happens that it had to come from somebody I just met and what I would like to think still holds promise.

For the record my Personal Irony For 2009:

And while I thought she could be the Juliet I was looking for, she's searching for her King Arthur instead.


Ouch.

But enough of that. It's 2010. Got work tomorrow. Although I still "see" her from time to time, I think I'll regroup and let fate take its course.

To be continued...

Friday, December 18, 2009

Weekday Warrior Mode...

December 18, 2009

Eastwood Bowl

Took to the pool hall again. Went there with the plan to play with a couple of friends but never really pressed the issue considering the Christmas rush and nothing really special to celebrate (I'm just kidding myself). So I decided to just play. Remembering Kevin Costner movie when he said to himself on the pitcher's mound, "Shut the mechanism" as I line up for a shot on the billiard table.

Getting used to the new cue. Seems like will be her name will be Nikki. She's a gorgeous blonde, what can I say?

"C" has been in the bag for quite some time. Now reduced to the role of spare cue. She suddenly felt heavy and solid compared to the light touch and response I get with Nikki (could be my imagination). Guess there will be times that "C" will come to play when I need to take certain shots that will need her. ;)

Labels:

Saturday, November 14, 2009

I Want Both... The PS3 AND The Car... LOL...

Labels:

Thursday, November 12, 2009

I Wanna Do This... The Song I Mean...

Labels:

Monday, November 02, 2009

Starting November On A Right Note...

October 31, 2009

Holiday today, but Typhoon Santi kept me up on stormwatch for most of the previous night until early this morning. Then pretty much slept for most of the day to catch up on some lost sleep. Later that evening I went over to the Shak to celebrate Pol's birthday and Halloween as well. One thing of note, most of the food weren't really promoting long-life. There were shellfish (all foods bad for Pol) and Arvin's chilli, bulalo, and bread. For da win! :D

November 1, 2009

Went to Loyola in the day time to visit Lola. Man, it was hot in the shade there. We only lasted four hours and went back home early afternoon. That's when I got a call from Faye! She just got married and was passing through Manila before taking a flight back to Singapore the next day. We had dinner and a few games of billiards. She's had practice by the looks of it. Congrats Faye and have a safe trip back to Singapore. Will try to visit when I get the chance. ;)

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Uncharacteristic Play...

October 16, 2009

Haven't played up to my expectations this last outing. Got beat bad, and broke my breaking cue in the process. Got some nice shots using the new cue but consistency in my play was elusive. And some things really have a way of gnawing my mind and screw up my focus...

You know what, while at we're on the subject of these gnawing thoughts, I might as well put this one thought to rest with this post:

"For the record, regarding that spur of the moment invite last October 7, I really thought it was a good idea at the time, but it turns out it became an ugly revelation of what has festered in her mind for almost a year now. All the lies that have been spread at my expense, and all the ugly truths about her that I chose not to believe, pretty much came out after that. I hate how she, for the spoiled brat that she is, has manipulated even our friends to take sides, and I pity them for taking hers. At one time I took inspiration at the sight of her, now I have nothing left to say to her. For any attempts I make to set things right would only empower her to live out that little world that she convinces herself to be the truth. She made her bed, then she can sleep with whoever she wants in it."

End of rant.

That being said, I got better things to do than call that a dark road to walk on. Like getting back on track with my billiard game for starters. At least the possibility for that to happen has promise.

Labels:

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Tokyo Mater. LOL...

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Doing My Gift Suggestion Research...

This is serious. It's research for a Christmas gift.

Depending on whether she's been naughty...

Or nice.

Honest!

Monday, September 14, 2009

That Addiction Called Facebook...

Probably one of the reasons why I haven't been blogging regularly lately. :P

You neither confirm it nor deny it. Everyone still has the right to remain silent, but your newsfeed will incriminate you in the court of law...

Dietary substitute to the midnight snack...

Had to wake up in the middle of the night to upload highschool reunion pics. Enuff said...

Some friends already do it as part of their daily morning ritual, probably close to taking over top billing to "trip to the bathroom"...

Some go for the games. Don't get me wrong but farming is one of my dream retirements but not online, just not my cup of tea online. Yet. ;)...

Some go for the quizzes... I take it every now and then...

Some send you stuff. Only pet peeve there is you have to subscribe and send stuff first to see who sent you the stuff to begin with. Did you get that?...

But some still wanna see in real time what their friends near and far might be doing or feeling or whatever...

Just because...

Gravity...

Thursday, July 02, 2009

How I Spent My Birthday...

Woke up 5:30am.

Said a quick prayer of thanks. Thanks God, You rock!

Went back to bed... Hehehe...

My family greeted me first thing. To Darling Beautiful Mother, Darling Handsome Father, Gorgeous Sister, Sister Pie, Barry Pie and Ate Mely: Thanks, and HUGS all around. Sige na nga to Dodong, Bubbles and Snowy, thanks din! But pass muna on the hugs until you've taken your baths, eh? :P

My horoscope said Thursday will be my lucky day. Tried putting it to the test. Played online poker with a couple of friends around 8am. But I guess I was the only one on an Asian timezone. Went all-in a couple of times and lost a lot but it was a hilarious table. Guess I'm one of those who shouldn't gamble on his birthday. Only got the Cheap Date Achievement to show for it. To Ivy, Uly, Ken, Sugar, Joel, Michele: Thanks guys wherever you are. Sorry for not telling you it was my birthday in case you guys decide to go easy on me. Hope to play against you guys soon and win back my money. Haha... (Post gaming thought: Technically, all my opponents were playing on a Wednesday... no wonder I lost! Argh! LOL.)

Had my haircut for my upcoming "mugshot". P99 and P1 to the Bantay Bata can. Made a small pledge to keep my spending on my birthday simple. Dunno why I said that.

Before I went to LTO, me and the folks had lunch at Max's Robinsons Metro East. Wow, I remember the time I was always looking forward to eating at Max's Restaurant over at Roces and Sct. Tuazon everytime every time there was a special occasion. Brief nostalgia trip right there.

Went on to have my driver's license renewed. Found out while lining up that it has expired a year ago! That medical exam/drug alcohol test was a total drag. Now that I got my license renewed, I can now afford to test positive in the next alcohol test! Kidding. :P

Went home with the sun still up. Cool.

Did a bit of surfing... checked my blog if it still exists. Well, it seems like I wasn't the only ones with blogs in limbo. So I decided to draft this post in the hopes of bringing this blog back to life. Had Greenwich pizza for dinner. Too bad there wasn't any 3M anywhere nearby. Have some of you ever remembered that 3M pizza parlor over at Araneta Coliseum? You don't? Really? 3M would've made this whole experience totally nostalgic. Haha.

Got a few greets from a few friends. Some on Facebook, some on SMS, some via YM, some via ESP, or just plain wishful thinking on my part. To those who greeted (Yes, all THREE of you and you know who you are. Haha!): Thanks for remembering. Makes it all worth living this long. You're all an inspiration to a Nickelback song that keeps playing in my head (Special plugging: to Ria B,if you're reading this, belated! Naks.):

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me...


Ending the day in a few minutes. The thought that I'm another year older has already sunken in. Still not much money on my pocket, but I'm not complaining. I had a wonderful time today. And no one can take ever that away from me now.

I'm bringing my cues tomorrow. Time to paint the town red.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Put It On The Line and Stepped Out One Time Too Many...

This is pretty much my In The Moment state...

I can't believe what is in front of me
The water's rising up to my knees
And I can't figure out
How the hell I wound up here
Everything seemed okay when I started out the other day
Then the rain came pouring down
And now I'm drowning in my fears


And as I watch the setting sun
I wonder if I'm the only one


Cause everybody tries to put some love on the line
And everybody feels a broken heart sometimes
And even when I'm scared I have to try to fly
Sometimes I fall
But I've seen it done before
I got to step outside these walls


I've got no master plan to help me out
Or make me stand up for
All the things that I really want
You had me to afraid to ask


And as I look ahead of me
Cry and pray for sanity


Cause everybody tries to put some love on the line
And everybody feels a broken heart sometimes
And even when I'm scared I have to try to fly
Sometimes I fall
But I've seen it done before
I got to step outside these walls


These walls can't be my haven
These walls can't keep me safe here
Now I guess I've got to let them down


Cause everybody tries to put some love on the line
And everybody feels a broken heart sometimes
And even when I'm scared I have to try to fly
Sometimes I fall
But I've seen it done before


I got to break out...
I got to break out...
I got to step outside these walls
Love outside these walls
I felt my heart breaking
But its a brand new day
Im going down
Im stepping out
Im stepping outside these walls
I've seen it done before... and I'm walking on,
I'll walk it off, oh I'm moving on